Once Was Lost

Once Was Lost✿ [EPUB] ✷ Once Was Lost By Sara Zarr ❥ – Jobs-in-kingston.co.uk Hope can be hard to hold on toWhen thirteen year old Jody goes missing the national spotlight turns to Samara Taylor's small town of Pineview With few clues for investigators to follow everyone is a s Hope can be hard to hold on toWhen thirteen year old Jody goes Once Was PDF \ missing the national spotlight turns to Samara Taylor's small town of Pineview With few clues for investigators to follow everyone is a suspect including Jody's older brother Nick But even as the town rallies in solidarity Sam feels alone than ever Her mother is drifting farther and farther away while her father grows increasingly preoccupied as he steps in to help Jody's family in the wake of the disappearance During the tense uncomfortable days that follow Sam draws closer to Nick as the local tragedy intersects with her personal oneNational Book Award finalist Sara Zarr delivers a powerful novel originally published under the title Once Was Lost about community family faith and one girl's realization that sometimes you have to lose everything to find what's been missing all along. The I read by Sara Zarr the I think I understand her and the I begin to appreciate what it is she does She doesn't take sides she isn't emotionally manipulative she releases a whole bunch of complex characters that aren't typically likeable and allows the reader to receive them however they choose I think this is why I failed to appreciate Story of a Girl because the issues targeted in it are very important to me and I wanted the author to fight for Deanna to stand up for her and that's just not Sara Zarr's style I get that nowOnce Was Lost on the other hand is an absolutely perfect novel to use this techniue in I am an atheist but I cannot stand anyone who preaches their religious views in novels whatever they may be and regardless of whether or not they agree with my own beliefs I don't wish to have any idea rammed down my throat Sara Zarr is the reason I was able to stomach a book that has a very heavy focus on religion because she never attempts to put ideas in my head In my review of Story of a Girl I remember commenting that I wished I knew where the author stood on the problems in the book because it wasn't obvious And again with this novel I do not know where Sara Zarr stands when it comes to religion but this time I feel the novel is better for itThe novel becomes about the characters and their emotions and suffering and recovering it is not a book about whether or not God exists The religious aspect is an important part of showing how Sam loses her grip on her perfect life and what she'd previously believed in The main uestions are will Sam recover what she has lost not just her religion but her life family and happiness? How will she do this? Will she ever become the person she once was?Though I don't think this was as strong a novel as How to Save a Life it has cemented my love for Sara Zarr and I can't wait to see what she writes next Once Was Lost is a book about faith About losing it and finding itYes I know how it sounds Nothing can stop me from reading a book uicker than knowledge that I am about to delve into some Christian fiction I am not a religious person and dislike being preached atBut in this novel Samara's waning faith in God is similar to a non religious person's belief in the good in the world Sam feels hopeless Everything seems to fall apart her house her family Sam's pastor father is distant and neglectful her mother is in a rehab and unapproachable her friendships The final straw is the disappearance of a 13 year old neighbor which forces Sam to lose faith in all the people around her Is there anything solid in this world? Anything at all good? Anything worth holding on to? Anyone she could trust? Sam is lost and doesn't think that there is a point in it all that there is anything worth believing in What I liked the best about Once Was Lost is its subtlety Writing books about depression despair and loss of direction in life is a tricky thing Many authors fall into writing melodrama Zarr managed to write a nuanced deep and touching story about depression without resorting to over angsting and a story about faith without being preachy 35 “I wonder how you're supposed to know the exact moment when there's no hope” I have read 5 books from Sara Zarr including this one and I can say that this book is my least favorite Not that it wasn't good It was good I bet some people will like it than I do Actually some Goodreads people liked it than I do haha It's just that I didn't get attached whole heartedly with the main character who is Samara And sometimes I did feel I can't connect with the story either I mean one moment I understand what is happening and the next moment I don'tBut even though with what I've mentioned above I did feel the emotions within this book and its characters the pure sadness worry anger suffering and recovering that really moved me in one way or another Besides these flawed and complex characters made the story engaging to read What We Lost is still a compelling read for me despite my issues with it which tackled serious life and spiritual issues and will remind you of what you lost Street Corner TBR Pile reduction challenge #7 OliviaI seldom read books about faith and religion simply because as what you could consider a non believer they are rarely something I can relate to In this case I have to say Sara Zarr really succeeded in creating a very relatable heroine not only for people who can identify themselves with her faith but also for everyone else This book does not preach and although Samara's situation is closely linked to her disappearing faith in God her doubt and uncertainty are universal They are nothing only a person of faith experiences but rather something anyone has to deal with sometimes Now and then I was thrown off by the biblical references Sam comparing her situation to stories in the bible but mostly because that is something I am unfamiliar with and also something I would never do But I think for her as a pastor’s daughter this was a part of her everyday life something she grew up withThis story is a uiet one unravelling slowly without much action or drama But it is also a story that lingers with a message I thought about and characters that became very dear to me The first half of the book was slower for me the sadness and desperation sometimes hard to take making my stomach hurt from the pain Sam experienced The second half was a much uicker read with shimmers of hope shining through every now and then making me hope for a change for the better I am amazed at how much feeling Sara Zarr succeeded in packing in such a small bookRecommended if you are looking for a different uieter YA contemporary I will definitely read by this author 3 12 starsWhile I can now say uneuivocally that I am a committed Sara Zarr fan this one is probably my least favorite of hers Like her other novels it’s well written and replete with honest bare emotion but for some reason I didn’t connect with this one completely For me her books belong in two categories there’s the bristly damaged and difficult category for Story of a Girl and Sweethearts and then there’s the melancholy but hopeful category for How to Save a Life and this book Me being me I prefer the horribly difficult category But I strongly suspect that this novel and her latest will be the most popular among readers So if you are one of those folks who didn’t uite like Story of a Girl because it seemed too depressing then I would give this one a tryStill Sara Zarr is one of my favorite writers of contemporary YA She’s the kind of writer who if I were a bit less mature might make me want to say “ In your face Australia” Sam is a teenage girl isolated by her status as the Pastor’s daughter She lives behind an image of the good girl the devout Christian the perfect daughter in the perfect family But in reality her mom is in court suggested rehab and her dad the perfect young and hip Pastor doesn’t have time to notice that she’s alive Even her friends keep her at an arm’s length When a terrible tragedy occurs the people of her small town are shaken and Sam begins to uestion her own faithThis is a book about faith but not just simple religious faith It’s about faith in the people around you in your family It’s about that childhood realization that parents are just extremely flawed people like everyone else and they will make horrible mistakes I kept going back to the title of this book while reading it to the lyrics of Amazing Grace “I once was lost but now I’m found was blind but now I see” Reading this book makes me consider those words in a new light because as much as this book is about regaining what once was lost it’s also about having your eyes opened Sometimes that’s empowering and sometimes that means losing something that can’t ever be regainedI think that this book is also about repression and denial Sam keeps everything – her anger grief jealousy and doubt – bottled up inside And it’s clear that she’s learned this behavior from her mom the perfect housewife who drinks to get through the days and from her dad the perfect Pastor whose life is actually falling apart It seems like by the end of this book nothing has really changed for Sam in that respect although I did see growth in both of her parents She never does tell her mother or her father or anyone how she really feels And I think that would have been completely realistic and yet another example of the ambiguous endings that I’ve grown to know and love from Sara Zarr but the ending itself just feels tooresolved In my mind Sam was heading down a path of depression and a possible addiction of her own someday if she didn’t learn to open up to someone But the ending seems to be telling me that everything’s going to be alright and that just doesn’t add up for me I guess I was looking for catharsis with an ending that neat Maybe I feel like happiness demands a pricePerfect Musical PairingMumford Sons – Hold on to What You BelieveAh it’s been a nice run of Sara Zarr and Mumford Sons hasn't it? Now I just have to wait for her to write another bookI think that this is a love song primarily but when I listen to it I think about Sam and her mother Those were the parts of this book that affected me the most Sam is so fundamentally a little girl who misses her mother terribly and that reached me as both a mother and a daughter I also love this verse of the song “But hold on to what you believe in the lightWhen the darkness has robbed you of all your sight” Author Sara Zarr goes from strength to strength with her writing Story of a Girl and Sweethearts are both beautifully told uiet and courageous stories but I think Once Was Lost is my favourite so farWhile the religious premise may make some mainstream readers hesitant it is so honestly portrayed that it's not about religion at all rather one girl coming to terms with faith hopelessness searching for the truth and trying to find her place in the world not issues uniue to Christians rather relevant to everyone regardless of religious belief There was nothing preachy about it phewIt's a subtle book unfolding in layers which continually drew me in until it got to a point where I felt deeply invested in the characters lives It is the kind of book where I held my breath and somehow felt touched and empowered after completionZarr has an amazing talent and teen voice Her stories may not feature original twist y premises or jaw dropping OMG climaxes Rather they feature layered flawed and achingly real characters in circumstances that are relate able her stories feel like the truth and challenge me as a reader They cause me to think beyond myself and to hope Once Was Lost felt simultaneously effortless to read yet there was constance depth bubbling away under the surface This was completely absorbing and absolutely touching and the kind of YA contemp that keeps me coming back to the genre for Also I should mention her prose is just lovely simple and flowing and occasionally uietly metaphorical Gorgeous I am in love with this bookDear Sara ZarrThe only other book I have read by your magical self is Sweethearts Maybe I need to read it again because I don't remember liking it that well and we are clearly MEANT TO BELove ErinYep didn't feel like writing the whole review in letter form cause who does that? I say that with love toward all of you fine reviewers who do just that ;But unfortunately I can't put my feelings about this book into words very well right now Maybe ever I'll try anyway1 Sara Zarr is a poet I notice this especially after reading The Maze Runner which while not badly written was clearly not written by a poet Sara dwells on her words with love The descriptions and inner monologue are rich and multi faceted while the dialogue is realistic and glorious to read So many of these characters were truly hilarious And in many cases cuddle worthy2 The romance killed me Oh my dear goodness For a long while I was not really paying much attention to the relationship between Sam and Nick happy with the two of them being friends and sharing their uniue pains Um well so By the end I was like WOULD THE TWO OF YOU PLEASE JUST GET MARRIED AND BE HAPPY FOREVER???3 More importantly than any of that although the above two factors have made me a Once Was Lost fan TILL KINGDOM COME was the simple fact that Sam's story hit me Hi guys just the local Christian going to a Christian college here letting you know that Sam's faithdoubt issues are pretty much the most amazing thing ever I want her to be my best friend and I will punch Erin in the face for her which is a weird thing to type my name being what it is and I dah I don't know As soon as I finished the last page I started daydreaming about the fine day when I will officially own this book And read it until the binding falls apartThat is what it deserves Read it read it read it read itI open my eyes and look past Erin past Daniel through the leaves of a nearby tree and into the sky I attempt to see past the sky and into God's heaven from where he watches doing nothing I want to believe the stories that there really is someone who would search the whole mountainside just to find that one thing that he loves and bring it homeI am at a total loss as what to rate this book But one thing I can say for sure is that it gave me a lot to mull over and analyze that I even thought about how I felt at the age of 15 againAt Samara's age I can remember being very contemplative like she was in the story She feels the urge to mature and to fully grasp the understanding of the things she always relied on but is struggling so much because of what is happening around her Her father is the pastor of a local church in Pineview and her mother is in rehab There is the whole thing about being the pastor's kid and how she is treated differently because of it Things are going on as normally possible but something happens that shakes the whole town Jody a local girl from the chruch is kidnappedThis book tackles the sensitive issue of religion and Zarr did this with ease When talking about religion in books it can come off preachy and you can just imagine eyes rolling You see actual substance and you never feel this is an anti religion book though some people may see it that way because of the doubt that Sam harbors It touches a lot of subjects without being heavy handed The feelings that Sam has really come through to you and though I was close to being annoyed at her she would do something redeeming Sam is fairly mature and I appreciated that she could see why her father mother or anybody for that matter would do certain things but she never excused them for it With Jody being taken away you see how the paranoia can get to people The whole town sees everybody in a different light and I had to keep guessing who did it though this isn't necessarily the book's focus It's real focus is how this event affects everyone in the town and specifically Sam What can be admired about the author is how she can write scenes that hold lots of hidden meaning without much being actually said Sometimes what is not said speaks louder than what isAfter reading the review I obviously had only positive things to say and it is one of those books that make the gears in your head turn Delivered the message with much heart that even though you feel lost you can find your way Once Was Lost by Sara Zarr is set in the small town of Pineview Samara Taylor is fifteen and lives with her father Charlie the town’s pastor She remembers a happier time last summer spending time with her parents but now her mother is in rehab and Samara feels like everything in her life is breaking or already broken Her father is ignoring the problems they’re facing like her mother being in rehab and the fact that they rely on the town to pay their bills and while he’s good at being there for his congregation he’s not good at listening to his daughterSara is a master at writing opening pages I immediately felt the heat and hopelessness of Samara’s life Samara’s mum is an alcoholic and has been in a local recovery centre for two weeks after she crashed her car while drunk Before that Samara can remember a time when her mother still functioned but over the last year or so Samara increasingly had to cover for her mother explaining why she couldn’t attend an event or why she’d forgotten to do something She understood the pressure her mother felt to keep up appearances as the pastor’s wife but it was a lot of responsibility to put on a fifteen year oldWhile dealing with her mum Samara is also coming to terms with the fact that she has lost her faith She can remember believing when she was younger but lately she finds herself doubting her belief and uestioning the idea that your church community is always there for you does that include when your mother is in rehab? Do people actually care when they ask how you are? She still attends Youth Group with some kids from her school including her best friends but she’s always felt like an outsider because they only see her as the pastor’s daughter and they assume she’ll tell on them if they do anything they’re not supposed toThen a girl from their community Jo goes missing and her father is once again spending time with others rather than dealing with his own life Nick Jo’s older brother is a member of Samara’s Youth Group The two of them aren’t really friends but his sister’s disappearance throws the two of them together and Samara enjoys having someone to talk with honestlyI really felt for Samara she’s trapped in a situation created by her parents and she doesn’t have anyone to talk to apart from Nick Her Youth Group leader Erin wants to help her but Samara is suspicious of her relationship with her dad another thing Samara has to worry about I didn’t like her dad very much he let his work get in the way of caring for his daughter and at the same time he was really controlling Samara isn’t allowed to use the internet and has never even held hands with a boy so of course her dad reacts negatively to the news that Samara and Nick are becoming friends Samara broke my heart when she asked Nick if a boy would ever see her as a real girl I can’t imagine feeling like I wasn't real and wondering if anyone is going to like me for me My only ualm with her was her need to make up answers instead of being honest about her feelings so as not to make people uncomfortable but I don’t blame her I blame her community for that because she feels like she must have everything together all the timeI don’t usually read novels revolving around religion but Once Was Lost has a lot going for it so don’t let that put you off Sara has a way of writing so honestly and to me the bigger issues were family growing up taking responsibility and loveThere was a sad and lonely feel to this story but the ending was uite hopeful Written in Sara’s brilliant way Once Was Lost is sure to please fans of YA contemporary I am a big fan of Sara Zarr’s work see Story of a Girl and How To Save a Life particularly the uiet emotion that permeates her strong character driven stories Once Was Lost is no exception For a novel that deals with uestions of faith Zarr approaches the subject matter with accessibility and lack of agenda Sam’s struggle with belief is relatable because it’s anchored in very human emotion and circumstances while a small community is shaken by the disappearance of a young girl Sam’s own family is grappling by her mother’s alcoholism and her father’s increasing distance absorbed into his work as Pastor Sam also doesn’t uite see herself as belonging; she’s “Pastor Charlie’s daughter” the one who doesn’t get invited to parties the one everyone is “good” around With with her mother’s DUI and subseuent admission to rehab Sam becomes even alienated from her peers unable to confide in them and disclose the true nature of her mother’s absence Sam struggles to reconcile the concept of a loving God with the widening spaces within her family and the devastation wrought by Jody Shaw’s disappearance As the community draws together for support and comfort Sam finds her grasp on her faith slipping uestioning what was once a constant in her life causes a hopelessness to settle into Sam’s thoughts; without the anchor of belief in God how does she interpret and navigate the world around her? Once Was Lost addresses the uestion from Sam’s perspective of whether doubt and belief can coexist in her world It’s handled in a subtle tactful manner – this undoubtedly a book about faith and religion but there are themes here that will resonate with a wider audience than those who subscribe to a belief system similar to Sam’s The relationships in the novel between family and between friends are particularly well drawn and nuanced Sam’s growing isolation exacerbated by her father’s preoccupation with his congregation echoes the sense of alienation often experienced in adolescence Sam isn’t uite sure where she fits in if she is the person she had always thought herself to be Then there’s the emotional impact of Sam’s mother being in rehab and what this means after years of glossing over her alcoholism and her father’s apparent inability to see his daughter’s emotional struggle As with Zarr’s other novels there are no absolutes and not necessarily all the answers Her characters experience feel live with palpable emotion; but they don’t necessarily behave or make the choices the reader would expect I love that Zarr has enough respect and faith in her characters to write them this way allowing them to be thorny and complicated while keeping them close to the reader making their conflicts real and relatable Once Was Lost is a uiet moving novel – rich with authenticity and meaning – that addresses a complex issue in an approachable and balanced manner And maybe one day I will get around to reviewing Sweethearts

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  • Paperback
  • 240 pages
  • Once Was Lost
  • Sara Zarr
  • English
  • 27 June 2016
  • 9780316232180